Always Remembered

On December 31st, my father, John Lynn Holwege at 62 years of age, passed away peacefully with my mother and brother by his side. The world has lost a wonderful man, my family has lost an amazing father and grandfather. He will be missed deeply. With our memories he will live on forever. Last week was a really hard week as my family laid him to rest, his graveside ceremony was very impressive, one I will never forget and he deserves every bit of it. On Saturday, January 8, over 500 people arrived at his memorial to show their support, friendship and love. My father was truly a great man. He has taught me more about life then anyone. Because of him I want to be a better person, I want to be non judgemental, a hard worker, a better wife, fulfill my duties in the church by providing service to those in need, I want to enjoy life and all the little things that we all seem to ignore. When I think about him passing away it's hard to believe and it doesn't seem real. I'll always remember him each and every day as I feel him close, watching over my family. Today a friend at work gave me a special keepsake ornament. On the back of the box it reads, memories remind us that we have loved and been loved... that our lives were touched by someone very special. The ornament is a white sea shell with a shinny pearl in it and on the ornament it says, "Every life leaves something beautiful behind". My fathers life was a wonderful life cut short and he did leave something beautiful behind, he left a legacy of a great family, who loves and supports one another. I will forever remember my dad, he is the best.

My Father

Some of you know and many of you don't know that my father is battleing a rare, slient, but deadly cancer called Cholangiocarcinoma (cancer in the bile duct). He has been battleing it for some time now, but only found out last July and that he is in stage 4. With the last few months being hard for my family, my mother and specially my father who fights each day to gain the strength he needs to continue to live each moment with his grandchildren, his children and the my mother the love of his life, who has devoted her life to my father and would do anything for him. It's hard to see my father in this condition and to hear him on the phone when I speak to him I wonder, is this the last time I will hear his voice or tell him I love him. I pray to my Heavenly Father to allow him more time to be with his family, to enjoy life, to enjoy the beauty of the world that our Heavenly Father has created. It's been a battle with ups and downs, good moments and bad moments, keeping the faith and then having moments where I am so angry and wonder how this could happen to my father who has done nothing to deserve this. But then I am reminded that things happen to us for a reason, we have to trust in the Lord and know this is happening to my father for a reason and know someday we will learn the truth of why my father has to go through so much. I love my father, he is a kind, loving, gentle, respectful father. He is a wonderful husband to my mother, a wonderful father and grandfather. I have always looked up to him for his talents, his knowledge and love for life. His compassion for others, specially those who are have been mistreated in the world, my father has always been there for whom ever needed a friend or extra love. He is a hard working man that has worked so hard throughout his life to provide for a large family of 8. I can remeber sitting in church as a child and holding is hands and looking at the dry cracked skin and calises on his hands and now as I am older I realize that was from working so hard. My father is amazing at everything he does, from painting, drawing, woodworking, writing stories and poams or simply clipping the branches from a tree in the backyard and making a wreath for me to hang in my home. I want my father to know that I love him and will forever be greatful for the loving father he is and greatful that Heavenly Father sent me to live with him and I am so proud to be his daughter. When I was young I once gave my dad a fathers day card and inside I wrote, "To the Best Dad I ever had", as he read it he was laughing and said what other fathers have you had. I think now and laugh at what I wrote, but I have no others just you, my dad and you really are the best. My heart is aching and hopeing that my dad will recover and life will be back to normal, but I don't think that is in the Lords plan. But I hope in Heaven and pray that when it is time for my father to return that he will be welcomed by those that have passed on and won't be alone. I pray that my father will enjoy the beauty there and have all the trees in the world to trim, beautiful lawns to mow and edge, a big white wall to paint and draw on when ever he wants, and most of all will have the choice to be with us when ever he wants, so he can continue to see us and watch his grandchildren and future grandchildren grow. Please pray for my dad, if you know him or don't know him he needs all of your prays. I love you dad.

Jacks Crazy Haircut

I discovered Jack had a few ratties in his hair and was due for a haircut, but I didn't know how bad it was until I saw Jack after his hair cut, I just wanted to cry. He looked like we had been starving him for months and his ears were so short they looked like he had girl pony tails. but it's only hair and thank goodness it grows. He is looking much batter now and back to his normal self. I guess that teaches lesson that I need to brush his hair more often.

Jackson Bomont turns 1 or is it 10

Mama's baby turns 1. Shane and I celebrated Jack's birthday with a nice yummy dinner thanks to Ceaser, he received a few fun toys, which by the way are now destroyed due to Jack's power chew, I think he had a good birthday.

Papa & Jack

Woke up one morning and found my boys snuggling up and snoozing away. Just had to share.

Haappyyyy Haalloooweena!

This year the Bonella's dressed as pirates. IRR Jackson Bomont was a good sporta. We loved dressing as Pirates. This year was fun and my most favorite costume dressing up as an adult. Hope everyone had a good Halloween.

My Family